I shift to my left a little bit. There is a piece of comforter just underneath the lower right side of my torso and it is annoying. I wait for a few moments.
Barbara the dog is finally comfy
Barbara the dog slowly lowers her head onto my back and exhales. I don’t move a muscle for the next four hours. That piece of comforter aggravates me the whole time.
Barbara snores gently.
I spend a lot of time making sure this part of our family is comfortable, warm, and happy.
There are many lies I tell myself but “It could be worse” is the most frequent.
I work in the live event industry and I use this lie many times while working to get through rough spots. There are a lot of rough spots. There seem to be more rough spots post-pandemic.
Equipment not showing up or showing up damaged, labor not showing up or showing up unprepared, and rules that no one could possibly know being enforced. Two of these typically happen on any given event I work on. All three happened on the last one and I just kept having to tell myself, “It could be worse.”
Front view of a show I recently did at the Moscone Center in San FranciscoBackstage view of a show I recently did at the Moscone Center in San Francisco
The event in the pictures is not the last show I did. It was a show I did in San Francisco in October of last year. All the gear showed up, the labor was excellent but the building had remarked all the rigging points in the ceiling and they no longer matched what we had on our diagram of the room. “It could be worse.”
That set us a back a couple of hours but because the other two fell into place; we made up the time and everyone went home at a reasonable hour.
“It is what it is,” is also bandied about quite a bit. I know that phrase annoys people but dang it, some time it is what it is.
Maybe I could add a meditative “OM” to to the end of my lie and it would become a new trend in the mindfulness movement. Just imagine a world in which twenty truck loaders and forklift operators are sitting in the siddhasana pose chanting “It could be worse, Ommmmmmmmm,.” while seagulls dig for scraps in nearby dumpsters and diesel fumes fill the air.
There were many jobs I thought were my dream job as a kid but one remained constant.
My Dad, a bad ass cop
I wanted to be a police officer, just like my Dad.
It’s a little on the nose, I know, the kid wanting to do what his dad does but, it was the fashion of the time and I was on board.
Me as a happy cop in 5th grade
My Dad definitely had that “A cop on the edge” vibe. I would have been a more happy-go-lucky cop. I look so cheerful while arresting my friend.
I remember the moment I changed my mind from wanting to be a police officer to wanting to portray a police officer. I was in 8th grade in Bayfield, Colorado and I was taking a theater class. I was cast in the role of the police officer for the play were were performing at the end of the semester. I cannot remember the name of the play.
For my entrance, I had the line, “Nobody Move!” So, as per the fashion of the time, I flung the set door open, executed a shoulder roll to behind a sofa on stage and popped up with the line. It got a laugh and I changed from wanting to be a cop.
I met Connie when I auditioned for her play, The Rub, at Bedlam Theater in Minneapolis. I received a monologue in my email for the audition and I was instantly hooked.
The character of Robert was so tortured, delusional and real. The play itself was filled with supernatural elements, including a chorus of cockroaches that morphed into different characters in Robert’s life and/or mind. He was both literally and figuratively in jail for his crimes. Still, he had hope. Hope that someone, anyone, would visit him before his execution.
It was the best and most unique play I had read in a long time.
Her writing has always been and continues to be original, creative and human.
She champions the underdogs and the anti-heroes.
And she’s funny. The comedy is so well developed that when the comedic moment occurs it is anticipated and surprising; simultaneously bringing the watcher a deep level of appreciation for the precise craftsmanship of the playwright, along with a deep laugh.
He’s supposed to write about how I am irritating. What he doesn’t know is that I can read all the data the goes in and out over those wires he put through my walls..
I will write about how he is irritating.
Really, it’s one thing. He’s not Prince. He should not sing or dance to Prince songs.
To meet today’s prompt where it is, I took an online personality test to determine my color. Apparently, I’m Crimson.
Here’s what Crimson is according the to the results page:
Attributes: adventurous, bold, direct.
Friendliness and a love of excitement characterize people, like you, whose personality color is Crimson.
Bold, assertive, domineering, craving excitement—it’s how you live your life. You aren’t afraid to tell people exactly what you think, and you certainly don’t hold back in any aspect of your life.
I wish.
I followed up the personality test with online research into Crimson.
The meaning of crimson.
In a positive sense, crimson can symbolize vigor, passion, love, affection, and even courage. Since crimson is also likened to the color of fresh blood, however, it can represent darker meanings such as anger, warning, revenge, and ruthlessness.
Revenge and ruthlessness are nice.
Also crimson can be a verb.
I do wonder if the personality test ever assigns mauve, puce or taupe to people?
In the book, Bear delineates all the food he loves.
I love all the food that bear loves. We are basically twinsies.
As far as my favorite meals to prepare. I enjoy making chili mac, black bean salad, potato soup, and spicy chickpea soup (referred to as “Dad’s Soup” in our house.). All three are well received.
Here’s the recipe for “Dad’s Soup.”
Ingredients
3 x 16oz cans chickpeas
8 cups veggie broth
1/3 cup Frank’s RedHot Sauce
1 x 28oz. Can diced tomatoes with chilis
1 cup fresh kale, chopped
black pepper to taste
-Warm all soup ingredients in a pot until chickpeas are tender
I have moments of great happiness; however, I don’t like to talk about them. They are mine and I want them to stay mine.
Here is a lesser happy moment that was recent.
I was working at the Las Vegas Convention Center for CES (Consumer Electronics Show) and one of the crew I was working with asked which hotel I was staying at. I told him and he answered with, “Cool, you must be taking the Tesla Loop back to your hotel then.”
“The Tesla what?” I asked.
“The Tesla Loop.” he said.
Turns out there is a series of tunnels under the convention center that connect the West, Central and South buildings.
When I was growing up, there was a lot of walking on tv and in movies.
Shows I watched had characters that spent most of the credits of the show walking somewhere.
Then, in the beginning of the episode, the main character walked into a new situation; hopefully, there wouldn’t be any trouble . . . this time.
David Banner walking away while “The Lonely Man” plays.
Ultimately, the character did run into trouble, solved it tidily in a thirty minute or hour long increment and then walked away while the sad chords of loneliness underscored them.
I thought that walking away while sad music played was cool and dramatic.
Needless to say, walking has been and always will be my preferred mode of travel.
I’m not going to say I love walking and that it fills my soul but I will say that I am not afraid to walk anywhere or any distance . . . if I have the time.